To make you feel my Love

I had called my mom from the restaurant, for my group of friends were all planning to go to a late night movie. Mom was upset and said that I had to come home. I was only 20 years old sadden by the sudden change in my evening, my car was in the shop and my best friend Joanie had picked me up from my work for a Friday dinner with our bible study group of friends. When I went back to the table of friends saying I had to be home before my 11pm curfew. The group irrupted into protest and Joanie refused to take me home. I stood there surprised Joanie said my mom had to get off her high horse and let me just be an adult. I replied "Well I still have to be home or I will be in trouble, she said if I am not home in time she will take my car away!" I had just lived a few days without my car and it was so frustrating, I hated being helplessly stuck. No one came to my rescue, they said I should call my mom back and tell her off. I knew I wasn't going to do that! Then they said I should move out on my own, they never heard of a curfew for a 20 year old! I also knew I wasn't ready to live on my own yet. Even though I talked about my baby brothers all the time no one thought I should care so much about them. But I did think of them as if they were my own children so moving out meant leaving them behind, I couldn't do that to them. Now this group of friends left me alone for a movie and what hurt the most though I tried not to think about it was that Joanie left me saying she was sick of my mom manipulating me and I just let her. Then the guy who liked me and everyone knew it, said he would give me a ride home. I wanted to just die because I couldn't stay out of his way lately without being hugged or bumped into by him. He was very shy but every so often he was aggressively grabbing at me almost like telling others he has me in mind for his wife. I would dodge out very way I could and helplessly try to let him know he was ONLY a friend. It wasn't easy, for I didn't want to hurt his feelings and if I took charge of my own space it made me look like a mean person. He drove me home because everyone else went to the movies, If he hadn't offered I would of had to called my mom to come get me. Everything really went crazy fast as I sat in his pick-up with the radio blaring. I made small talk as I hung onto the handle of the door when he swung corner so fast trying to throw me into him as he drove. I was determined NOT to touch at ALL while riding along the half hour out to my home in the dark late night. Joanie had left me! was all that rolled over in my mind as I realized I wouldn't have abandon her for ANYTHING..... something about this fact made me very very sad. I sat chatting to this shy guy who always looked at me with such longing. "Sometimes God is the only thing we have to give us strength." I began thoughtfully trying not to cry, "He has brought me through the last year which was maybe the hardest of my life, I miss my sister and I miss my childhood yet God is here with me, I am really glad God knows my life the best." I nodded at him casually and trying to brace myself for another fast turn on the street as he replied  "I completely agree! God takes such good care of me too, for just yesterday I was starving and only had a loaf of bread to eat but then I prayed to God that I needed to eat and  suddenly there was peanut butter for my slice of bread! God is so Good!"   I tried not to stare at him as I wondered if this is as deep as he was going to get. I had been telling him that being friends is the best kind of a relationship to have. He was trying for something more asking me how do I know I never had a boyfriend. He said I couldn't say something like that for not even knowing how good other styles of relationships are. I was usually alarmed by him when he would tell me I needed a boyfriend, we both knew HE wanted to be that boyfriend. I sat in that ride home that night thinking it never felt so long and so dark. He suddenly turned up his radio I didn't think it could get any louder so I jumped after our awkward silence was broken by it, he exclaimed excitedly and happily "I LOVE THIS SONG! Have YOU heard it???"  I wasn't into country music anymore so I said "Nope never heard it. He went crazy waving at me to listen to it saying "YOU NEED TO LISTEN! It is my most favorite song of Garth Brooks!" I sat listening while my blood ran cold.
I couldn't breathe, I couldn't speak, I couldn't look over at him as he watched the country road taking me home but he also was watching me. As the horribly obvious lyrics made me melt into my seat and I grabbed to edge ready to jump out of the moving vehicle and RUN!
These were the words I would never forget, and I truly do not like this song because of this moment....

When the rain's blowing in your face
And the whole world is on your case
I would offer you a warm embrace
To make you feel my love

When the evening shadows and the stars appear
And there is no one to dry your tears
I could hold you for a million years
To make you feel my love
I know you haven't made your mind up yet
But I would never do you wrong
I've known it from the moment that we met
So no doubt in my mind where you belong


I'd go hungry, I'd go black and blue
I'd go crawling down the avenue
There ain't nothing that I wouldn't do
To make you feel my love

The storms are raging on a rolling sea
And down the highway of regret
The winds of change are blowing wild and free
But you ain't seen nothin' like me yet

There ain't nothin' that I wouldn't do
Go to the ends of the earth for you
Make you happy, make your dreams come true
To make you feel my love


He waited for me to say something about this song, I took a deep breath for the first time since the song had started. I laughed nervously explaining "Ya know...I never listen to country music anymore is this the newest from Garth? I think he is a great entertainer, I like how fun his songs are, he really puts thought into what he wants to say or how clever he makes the song stick....I am amazed at the world of music out there! I hope to learn more about who sings what and how music ever got started. OH LOOK! That is my home to the left! This was VERY nice of you to drive me all the way out here. I can't wait to get my own car back from the shop tomorrow! See ya Sunday at church! Okay Thanks again BYE!" I hadn't stop talking, I knew how to rambling on and on to avoid EVER discussing THIS song EVER AGAIN. He sat quietly frowning and just nodded until I was gone. I didn't look back and I couldn't wait chew out my friend Joanie for all I had JUST been through! She did come out later that night realizing she had been mean to me earlier, so she slept over and was laughing hysterically as I told her of my ride home. "IT WAS NOT FUNNY!" I cried out as I tossed my pillow at her as she couldn't stop till she had tears in her eyes from laughing, "It would NEVER of happened if YOU had drove me home!" I pouted, Joanie began laughing all over again as she said "THIS is a CLASSIC story! Something you could tell your children....How their daddy shared his heart with you!" I squealed out helplessly "STILL NOT FUNNY!" but I knew, I just knew it was all so crazy to ever forget.....Sometimes when that song plays I really wish I could forget!