And I know this to be very true.
I know that I am not ashamed of who I am now just wish I could remember what use to make me feel brave back then? I am rebuilding myself or reinventing....so I want to remember something about who I was before the day my brother died? I think it's such a deep personal quest in what I am facing that at times I feel as though I can't carry another new moment of the future. I know these are reactions to trauma, to painful loss and hurting grief as I have faced but sometimes I just need to write it out.........
The reality is we are all running out of time. The future will not slow down. We can only choose how to react and even then we might not have the strength to face it ever again.....
I know that my grief will never go away, and I am growing comfortable with that knowledge.
It's like the deep blue sea once you see it you are never the same.
Not ever..............
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