Knowledgeable Me

                     Whenever I look back onto my life I see how truly trusting I was, How open and honest I have always been. Then I can connect the dots of when I changed, when I stop trusting, only to learn how to be wiser in this trust. I am stronger for every event that shook me up, every mean word spoken in fights and how these many people who disowned me or attacked me I can honestly look back and think "WOW, I can't believe I made it through, there really isn't anything to be afraid of after all!" My life's stories make me realize no matter what they say about who I was when I was born, no matter how I behaved as a child and no matter what kind of mistakes as a teenager I created....I am always going to be open, honest and out there. For I am willing to get bruised, to be kick around by those who show their true nature then to have never loved to begin with. Now I know I have so much to still learn, I am excited to never stop seeking answers......How many times does my past flash before my eyes taking time away from this very moment at hand? Will I still be standing strong once I figured out how it all went wrong to begin with? Does it still sway over me all those old helpless feelings in fear, in all those past years? Knowledge is power, letting go of everything I can not change is true peace and I am on my way to grow more, to smile better. For right now I want to capture it, this time of how I am alive taking in each new beautiful day, seeking and wondering over all the new adventures ahead!