History in the making

It has been on my mind lately, how fast do we become history?

One of my long time beloved friends just reminded me that we graduated 20 years ago this past June. I was surprised that I wasn't paying attention to such a fact as that, She brought back the memories instantly by chatting online with me and my heart burst forth with such joy! To connect with her and to celebrate our shared past.....

For I love getting old, I love growing wiser and stronger in who I am. I can look back in awe of how important such a date in my own history was on that graduating ceremonial event from high school in our home schooling world was for me.....I am left in awe.

In June of 1996 we graduated, 5 of us girls put together our own ceremony with the help of our mothers. We sang songs together, gave roses out and shared a personal testimony of ourselves. In fact it was the very first speech I ever made on stage, I was surprised by how shaky my voice sounded when I talk so steadily usually. At 17 years old I realized that moment was not what I thought in my mind's eye to become. (Getting older allows you to look back with grace, I had never been in that situation before so of course I would do poorly) Graduation was the celebration of a good education for the adulthood at hand, yet not for me.....

I knew when I was 16 years old I needed help in my school work that I mailed off to some random stranger to grade. Even though my sister studied with me on the very same page, we were like ships at sea asking each other which way home? Having no idea what was the sky line or the water line, We struggled in the those years because being home schooled has no rules, has no motivation unless you the student take charge of what you need. Our parents were so busy by the time I was 17 years old wanting to graduate and get back to house work not book work, my mother had 2 new babies and my father worked 12 hour days.  Being 16 years old was the darkest time in my life. IF I hadn't had my 3 beloved friends helping me get through it I would of thought Heaven was my eternal better home to be in after all. I asked my beloved friend Rebekah for help in my biology, in my geometry and algebra. She gladly tutored me with kindness and excitement, her teaching skills burst forth easily and magically as I watched on in awe that I could learn from her in a way I had never known before!

(My mother always had good intentions as I grew up yet home projects and life took her away from teaching anything very easily)

I owe a huge thank you to my dear friend Rebekah, she brought me in on her school newspaper, she dedicated 2 hours a week to teaching me and I will always remember when I answered correctly a whole test run, we squealed together, jumped up and down hugging, laughing and she said "SEE! Debby you are not at all stupid like your father always says that you are, Look at how YOU can learn! and if you keep to these steps in studying then you can take on ANY subject I just know it!" 
(whenever people ask me who was your favorite teacher? I think of her instantly)

 We are always growing and learning, we are always needing and seeking, we are the journey within ourselves to change our life if it's not working in favor for ourselves. 

I thinks it's amazing looking back with grace, looking back with admiration and awe! 20 years ago....

Every story changes with the facts we can discover, it's why I love being a story teller because that is how I learn best, history teaches us so many little things about who we are today...I like to think that with my honesty and with my life's journey I can help the next generation get a better start in using this limited time on earth to create a better world for all!

I am already a part of history, in the cycle of life....
I truly embrace every level of my maybe 100 years.....
I look back in awe, I stand still with hope and I plan ahead for peace......

I see the history in the making, as I kiss the baby, run with the kids, hug and chat with a friend, pour the coffee with the elderly and light a candle on the days of death. 

It's all apart of life and time, it's all connected from start to finish, just how we choose to live our history.

Poetry is Promising!

It's amazing to me how important writing is, how inspiring it is to share what you feel and what you think with others....even if they may not relate or they may not understand what you are saying. It is the words to print, the being in the energy of conversation and connecting. Those who can learn and who can grow from what we write are why we share, for all those little words and thoughts can bring us all together sometimes, our writing can open our very own eyes to the other person beside us, it can also help save a forest like this poem did in YES! Magazine.

Writing and sharing, being brave and being open gives way to a whole new story! 

It's a whole new look on life, from the birds to the fish, from the plant to the tree we are here to share, we are here to breath!

Most importantly we are here to save what earth is left from greed and discruction.

We are the romance and the hope for the future. 

http://www.yesmagazine.org/issues/make-it-right/one-poem-that-saved-a-forest

Coldplay - Clocks

A Happy Life

To be home, to care for my pets this makes me so happy. This makes me grateful!

Life is always changing and shifting through the seasons, to just be means more to me then anything I could ever do with my time here.

I was out on the lake this week, learning to balance on a surf board.....the view of the trees and sunset was perfect and I was simply happy to just be there!

This morning as my Oscar cuddled with me on the couch having been away from him in my dog-sitting jobs and now I'm happy to simply hold him again.

It doesn't take much to have a peaceful happy good life, in seeing all my napping pets I am grateful!

       As I drink my coffee and read about how to have a happy life, it makes me even more happy to think about and to just BE here right now.......

Orange

The skyline of bright blue turns slowly

moving,

           changing, 

                       cooling down,

The skyline of summer time is clear

heating,

          salty and strong,

                                 shinning through!

The skyline of my eye sees the orange,

the purple,

              the pink,

                          the green fade into the dark.

The skyline of those sunsets I love to watch are FULL of colors!

Bursting out in orange

Bursting out in light!

The skyline is where I went to cry on the day my best friend died.

                                        Her favorite color was orange, we talked about it for a long time one evening, how colors speak to us, how they make us feel and think about different things. She gave life into the color orange that I had never thought about before....

The marigolds, the nasturtium flowers, the sunflowers and the zucchini blossoms all pop out at me in this great variety in shade of Orange. The dark green plants, the climbing velvet beans and the perfectly placed color of orange from the pumpkins and the tomatoes bursting into the early stages of fall!

Orange, a color so clear to see! 
Orange, a color that stands alone,
Orange, a color to fit perfectly with my emotions.......changing.
Orange, a color to notice and admire!

Orange is NOT the new black for me, because it has magic and power in it's own pigment that I would wear proudly out into a cocktail party, or twirl on the dance floor with no embarrassment!

Orange is the color of the fall season, the color that makes me sadly smile as I change with it too, as I grow....most importantly as I let go.

The colors of the world have stories to share, have feelings to give! 
                         

(and I can't help but think pumpkins love being the magical color of orange too)

A True Beauty

She was breath taking, 

She was beautiful,

She was brilliant and brave as she got married on that lovely summer evening in August of 2016, 

.....and I was full of joy, I was full of hugs and happiness, simply put I was lost in awe of her!  A True Beauty I had to remember to not stare on at her less she felt uncomfortable nor should I keep saying "Whoa, How AMAZING do you look right now? I love it and I love you!!!" She was getting married, she was pure magical!

               We cheered and we celebrate to their love and their friendship!

The sun was setting slowly over the mountains towards the west, the last of summer's good comfortable heat was still in the air as the music played over the driveway where everyone danced together! 

All the times that Molly and I sat talking about this day, this wedding event was now unfolding before my very eyes and I wished it would never end, The landscaping trees with strings of lights, the white tables and huge vases of Shasta daisies against the colors of Molly's "Earth." I had laughed so much when I asked her over one of our usual coffee time chats, "What are your colors going to be?" she explained that being boxed in on colors wasn't her thing and since the wedding would be outside then her colors are "Earthy, with blue sky and fresh air." I love this girl's spit fire common sense and I laughed. To the Earth it is then, such colors can not ever be completely captured after all.....

I have loved Molly like a sister for almost 30 years now and I look forward to another 30 very easily! She and KJ are going to be the kind of married couple that always makes you feel welcomed, always makes you feel like family to them both. I have enjoy these many years now of laughing together and discussing all kinds of topics, How beautiful they are together, how wonderful to celebrate their love on such a picture perfect summer day! 

May they live happily ever after together in that true beauty called  LOVE!

Summer Vacation

Last weekend I had a life long friend Molly getting married at her parent's home out in the wine country of Idaho. (Where we grew up together as "neighbors" attending the same church as children we were like sisters as I had befriended her older sister Tiffany when I was 11 years old.) Life in that world was both good and bad, we talked about when we first met up again on a long walk by the Boise river 10 years ago. She just had coffee with another good friend of ours from the past and that's when she learned of me being in Boise and able to meet up any time. 
So our friendship burst forth from that moment in time to this day, I would make her coffee in the mall as she was on break from her store, I would hug her in passing quickly saying "I love ya Girl!" as back those days were busy, on the go , always scheduled out and rather busy fun. 
She setup a double date for us, where my husband and I got to meet her boyfriend, now husband KJ, His stories and his humor had us laughing fully into the night of endless sushi. I was truly happy to have friendship in both of them over these many years now! All our BBQ's, coffee times, breakfast, gardening and sitting around a fire pit these friends of ours have made our life perfectly loved. I am so grateful for them!

So on August 20th on a magical summer night they got married!   
My heart burst forth such joy and love!
The music and the food, the friends and the family all came together so nicely and I loved being there among everyone again!
I simply love everyone just as they are, I am free from any religion, any social awkwardness in knowing we are all alive and well to celebrate and dance! This moment will not last, so to do the best you can is a great way to embrace these memories! My dear friend Tally who I love so much danced with me laughing and shaking her head at my goofiness, 
For our summer has been full of activities, of adventures together! I remember when Molly told me her niece was born back on one of our weekly walks together, Now this girl is 10 years old right before me! She has such happiness and honesty in her life force, I truly love her!
In fact I am grateful to be friends with the whole family in many different ways, The whole event was perfectly done and at the end of such a wonderful night my husband and I enjoyed the long soak at the hotel room in Caldwell. It was easier then driving back home so late at night, it was nice to know our dogs were safely cared for in the same town and the next day was a family BBQ at Tony's Dad's home where we got our dogs back. My mind was a mix of memories from the past seeing so many old friends at Molly and KJ's wedding, and of the future while we went wine tasting in the quickly growing wine country of Idaho. I took a long country drive, stopping a fruit stand in the morning saying "We have time to get some peaches, for we are on VACATION! We can really enjoy ourselves!" my husband Tony frowned "Stop saying we are on a vacation! in CALDWELL....is this what my life has become???" I laughed and reminded him that if we are not sleeping at home it's a "vacation" and it's far more relaxing then our anniversary last month even! Tony asked "How can you have so much energy all the time? Why do you like to see these people from your past when they weren't very nice to you? AND you have nothing in common anymore with them?" I shook my head at his silliness, explaining "I love all of them, no matter if they like me back or not. The fact they are alive and well is worth celebrating! Molly and KJ are my dearest friends so in visiting with  everyone else is a bonus! I was there for them fully and completely, The kids and I are all friends too so seeing the whole night burst with magical and love made me so happy! I loved dancing with Tiffany, it was like we were 14 years old again! I loved Molly's dress and how in love she looked! I loved every moment, now I love being out here in the country side driving around with you! It's like we are really on vacation! Now I want to go see Teresa and hear how the dogs slept last night, life is very short, We are on "vacation" this weekend for the wedding, for the break from regular life.....every moment is fleeting and magical that is why I have so much energy! Being happy for others is the best feeling in the whole world too....I am glad it all worked out for us to stay in Caldwell this weekend!" He chuckled and shook his head, for as usual that he would rather go somewhere else for a summer vacation. But I loved seeing the whole valley before us as we drove on out to the wineries, after a good night's sleep, a long soak in the salt water Jacuzzi hotel room to the evening BBQ with family, I loved this "vacation weekend" so much!
It was all so perfect, so beautiful and so heart warming for me!